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15 July 2009 @ 07:29 am
i know this hasnt been updated for a while, two things:

would anyone be upset if i created a new community based on this one and tried to get it up, running and active? if you think it would be disrespecful to Kayla then just say, i do not want to do that in any way. i still dont know if i would but ive just been thinking about it.

second, does anyone have much information on Mercy Ministries? im seriously contemplating going. planning to ring later on today.
01 December 2008 @ 05:00 pm
I am being referred by my doctor to the eating disorder clinic in Auckland.
Has anyone been there?
I have never had help before and I am scared.
I do not want to recover.
Any advice or experiences?
20 November 2008 @ 02:18 pm


Bear with me as I sort it out, but for the moment being, I'll post anything else Kayla-related here. Details of funeral, memorial, etc. Please add your own memories.
18 November 2008 @ 11:45 am
RIP Kayla

14 November 2008 @ 03:12 pm

I brought these pills a few days ago and thought I'd do a little review because I feel if its something you might want to try then you should be prepared. You can buy them from Countdown (maybe other supermarkets?) for around $30ish dollars for 30 tablets (I think). They are big huge pink fuckers that taste a little off as they go down. It says to have one or two before a meal or a workout and it implies that four is the max. But it doesn't explicitly say not to go over that. They aren't supposed to be taken with prescription meds (whatever) or if you have an medical conditions. For the past two days I've been having four spaced out over the day and I felt them in my stomach and oesphogus quite quickly. Slightly uncomfortable but not unbearable. Then this morning I took five at once and went to the gym. Five minutes into my workout I had to bail from the crosstrainer to go violently vomit my red bull and some other burning liquid into the public gym loo (not self-induced. I actually had to run and clamp my mouth tight). I can't tell if it's helped me lose weight because I'm not weighing until Monday but I will keep you updated. These pills were taken with no food and I was restricting throughout the day so that might have been a factor.

Anyone else got diet pill reviews?

10 November 2008 @ 02:10 am
What do you guys think about the outcome of the election?

What effect do you expect this will have upon New Zealand's mental health services, and in particular eating disorder services?
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24 October 2008 @ 07:15 pm
A few weeks ago I was at my grandparents' house alone in the evening.
I was sitting on the couch with an enormous amount of food in between running to the bathroom. The television was on.
I noticed an advertisement for another ED treatment facility called Serenity or something like that. While I don't want to go there, I am curious about any new treatment facilities in NZ.

Does anybody know anything about this place?
18 October 2008 @ 06:20 pm
Where exactly is everyone here from?
Discharged mental patients have nowhere to go, say staff
4:00AM Saturday Sep 13, 2008
By Craig Borley

Seriously ill people are being discharged from Auckland's acute mental health clinic despite having nowhere else to go, mental health staff have said in a report.

The report, written by Auckland mental health staff to their union, the Public Service Association, spells out the gap staff believe exists between Auckland's acute mental health clinic's policy, and its day-to-day practice.

"There is an unwritten tenet within [the clinic] Te Whetu Tawera that short admissions are an indicator of competent practice/treatment and that lengthy admissions indicate the opposite," the report said.

Managers at the city's 58-bed acute mental health facility actively pressured mental health workers to discharge patients, despite knowing the discharges were often not in the patients' best interests, it said.

The rehabilitation facilities the discharged patients needed moving to were invariably full, the report said.

Such a practice was "high-risk" and compromised the welfare and safety of the patients, the report said, leaving staff expected to make "stupid" decisions that would be detrimental to their patient's health.

Auckland District Health Board's regional director of mental health services Ian McKenzie told the Weekend Herald the report was wrong to assert patients were being discharged with nowhere to go. Nor did he think there was a culture of encouraging short stays at the unit.

He said while there were issues to overcome in the city's mental health services, those issues had been clearly identified by a Ministry of Health review last year, which identified staff as the primary target for improving services.

The review's findings, released in February, said: "Rather than focusing on structural change we should be improving the competence of all our clinical staff."

Mr McKenzie said: "I don't think that it is the resources.

There are always resource constraints, because we're in a public health system. But I don't think the solution to the problem is more rehabilitation beds."

The report, and the testimony of an angry Te Whetu Tawera staff member spoken to by the Weekend Herald, backed up the report's conclusions.

The staff member said Te Whetu Tawera's clinical director had sent out directives to staff to clear beds of patients, as new patients needed to come in. One patient was discharged and told there was a year-long waiting list for the rehabilitation facility they needed. That patient subsequently took their own life, the staff member said.

Another had entered Te Whetu Tawera after a suicide attempt, made another suicide attempt while at the facility, and then entered into a suicide pact with a fellow patient.

Despite obvious signs of an intent to cause self harm, that patient was discharged to the street, staff said, and was found dead just a short time later.

ADHB director of area mental health services Dr Gregory Finucane said it was "incorrect to suggest that we are not taking the patients' best interests into account".

Mr McKenzie said Auckland was coming from a period of considerable mental health underfunding.

But that was changing, and the city now received about 80 per cent of what had been decided was its appropriate level of mental health funding. The goal was to reach 100 per cent.

"We believe that we're on the right path. In the Auckland region there's been quite rapid growth over the past five years, probably to the point where we have said, yes, we're growing about as quickly as we can."